Was talking to a client from Malaysia yesterday and she told me it's their National Day today. They called it Hari Kebangsaan (yes?). Happy National Day, neighbour!

Sorry to say that I don't know this. How do our neighbour celebrates their National Day? Can someone please enlighten me?

Saturday was fun, went to the rascal's fellow doggy friend's birthday party. Didn't bring Milo along though but I still had fun. Went to meet my army friends after that, it's been a while since we meet le. I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! It's been so long since I had so much fun, constantly looking at girls and rating them, flirting with the waitress (Sorry Christine, we mean no harm), laughing at each other of the funny stuffs that we used to do during our training days, updating each other about ourselves. Too bad not everyone can make it, next time we must have a full strength gathering.

Sunday was tired, slept at 4am on Saturday and wake up at 9:30am for gym....but I forgot I had to pay respect to my mama. It's 15th of the Hungry Ghost Festival. By the time I am done, my friend called me said he also done at gym le. Sorry man! So we arranged to go Comex 2004 and I bought a MP3 player. Creative Nomad Nuvo2, 1.5GB for only 299!! Cheap ba??!! HAHA. The rest of the day was spent reading, watching TV, surfing net. Slept at 4am again.

I just read a very interesting article written by L. It's about this girl who bought a ill fitting (size is smaller) shoe just because it's pretty and look nice on her. Of course, her feet hurts everytime she wear that shoe but still she cling on to it and refuse to throw it away. One day it almost cause her to lose her life, it was then she finally threw the shoe away.

I think what L is trying to say is, in life some people just go thru pain and hold on to things so stubbornly. It is impt knowing when to let go. After all, it just an "ill-fitting shoe" and of course a lot of people do know the above BUT when it's them, they will be refusing to let go.

I totally agree with L that humans r habitual creatures. What pulls them back in making a decision are their reluctance to change things that hv become a habit. Don't you think so?

[L, I quoted some of what you have said last night, hope you don't mind :) ]

If you guys do remember L, not only she's a cutie, she turn out to be one of the most multi-talented girl I ever seen. She seems to be good in everything she does, she also have this drive for life which I am seriously lacking since my breakup with my ex. I think 24hrs a day is really not enough for her. To name some, she's good in her studies, plays piano & trumpet, percussion, she acts in plays, she's good in Ikebana, she writes, she's good in handicraft.

I think it's time I buck up. I've been leading a very monotonous life since I started working and worst after I broke up with my ex. I don't think I can lead this kind of monolife anymore....I am really sick and tired of it. I have to adjust....re-setting my goals and targets in life.

I almost forget how one cannot live without dreams and goals in life. L indirectly reminded me that. Sometimes one just need a simple wake up call in life.

Life is all about setting goals and dreams, then work hard + play hard to achieve it, isn't it?

Brought home some work to finish up and it's freaking Friday night! I should be out having fun but why do I have to be working at home? Was trying hard to complete my work when Bpa Tan called and jio me out. The devil in me was like "Yeahhhh! Quick!! Say okie! You wanted to go out right? Work can wait till you come back." but the angel in me was like ".............." er....he didn't make any noise?? Oh......I realised I do not have an angelic side......so I told Bpa Tan to pick me up in 1/2 hour time. Work can wait, Friday night can't! So in the end, I went for makan and beer with Bpa Tan and Ng.

Gugu msg me a few times asking: "Clubbing tonight?" and I only saw it when I got home from makan. Hee....gugu SORRY for not replying.....

Finished my work at around 4am and throughout the whole night while I was doing my work, Q was on the phone yaking away about her problems. Ya...she and her bf quarrel again. You know...sometimes it hard to concentrate when so many things are going on at the time. First, I was like concentrating in doing my work, secondly, Q was on the phone and I have to constantly give her a "ya", "orh..." or "then" to let her know I am listening or at least pretending that I am listening, and lastly my father keep walking into the study room to ask me about the Olympics and UEFA Cup shown on TV.

I need a rest..............

Do you know how tough it is being a man...?

If you put a woman on a pedestal and try to protect her from the rat race, you're a male chauvinist.
If you stay home and do the housework, you're a pansy.

If you work too hard there is never any time for her.
If you don't work enough, you're a good-for-nothing bum.

If she has a boring repetitive job with low pay, this is exploitation.
If you have a boring repetitive job with low pay, you should get off your butt and find something better.

If you get a promotion ahead of her, that is favoritism.
If she gets a job ahead of you, it's equal opportunity.

If you mention how nice she looks, it's sexual harassment.
If you keep quiet, it's male indifference.

If you cry, you're a wimp.
If you don't, you're an insensitive pig.

If you make a decision without consulting her, you're a chauvinist.
If she makes a decision without consulting you, she's a liberated woman.

If you ask her to do something she doesn't enjoy, that's domination.
If she asks you, it's a favor.

If you appreciate the female form and frilly lingerie, you're a pervert.
If you don't, then you can't be straight.

If you like a woman to shave her legs and keep in shape, you're sexist.
If you don't, you're unromantic.

If you try to keep yourself in shape, you're vain.
If you don't, you're a slob.

If you buy her flowers, you're after something.
If you don't, you're not thoughtful.

If you're proud of your achievements, you're full of yourself.
If you don't, you're not ambitious enough.

If she has a headache, she's tired.
If you have a headache, you don't love her anymore.

NO WONDER MEN DIE BEFORE WOMEN.......


This is where I work....quite messy...


This is the old typewriter which I need to use when technology fail me...


My temperature drop to 37.4 Deg C...road to recovery..Yeahhhhhh


Setting up the mouse trap...let's see if I do catch anything next morning...


A stray dog in the base. I name it Xiao Bai...


Drop from a record high of 38.7 deg C to 37.4 deg C today. Look like I am on the road to recovery. Followed some advice given last night. Q told me to bath in cold water, followed by panadol and sleep with blanket covering whole body. Then gugu told me shouldn't bath, wear long sleeves, cover blanket and sleep. So contradicting....so I combined the two, I bathe, then I wear long sleeve, cover blanket and sleep. I supposed it works, since my temperature drop today. Actually apart from feeling very feverish and having an aching body, I am feeling quite okie last night.

Anyway, Tampines won last night!! We fought from 1-nil down to win the match 2-1!! Although I was shivering throughout the whole match but I think it's worth it. The title is almost ours.....waited 8 long years for this. We silenced all Home United fans with the winning goal at 88th minute. Home......go home lah. We are Tampines~~~We are Tampines~~~We are Tampines~~~this was the chant echoed throughout Tampines stadium towards the end of the match. Who said S League is not worth watching? Come and see the true blue S League fans in Tampines Stadium and you will understand.

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Just took my temperature, 37.8deg C.... no wonder I feel so like shit. This morning the temperature was like only 37.4deg C. I thought I will be fine, I even took two panadols just now. Look like it ain't got much help.

I am waiting for my colleague to be back in the office before I make my way to meet a friend. Ya....I still cannot go home yet. This friend took leave just for today so I cannot put aeroplane. And for those who are wondering why meet in the evening need to take leave...because my friend is having night shift today.

I think I will pop 2 more panadol before I leave, hope I will be feeling better. It's been raining the whole day le...can you imagining what it's doing to me? I am so bloody cold in the office despite wearing a jacket. I step out the office from time to time because it's too cold but when the wind blow, my whole body ache to the bone.

Oh....my colleague is back le. Ciao!

My ex msg me this morning telling me something.....No, we are not getting back together. :p She's telling me that my birthday falls directly on Mooncake Festival this year. Hmm...so 28 Sept is Lunar 15 Aug...at least I can have the company of the moon fairy (also know as Chang Er).

Oh ya....the mouse trap which my uncle and I laid yesterday caught a rat this morning. Heh heh.....should have bring along my digicam to take some photo. It's the first time I ever use a mouse trap, the device is so simple yet so effective. Hey, mouse trap's inventor, whoever you are, you are a genius!

My uncle was like suggesting how to kill the rat.....
"Okie, now we can scald it with boil water, sun it in the hot sun or burn it to death. Which way you want?"
"Er....can we let it go?"
"Wah lau....then we catch for what?"
"Never mind lah...still consider an animal mah"
"No lah, rats are pest."

My uncle then used a string and tied it onto the rat, holding up the rat using the string, he put the rat in a plastic bag and threw it in a big rubbish chute.
"Okie we don't kill it. If it survive then good, if not, too bad. Hao ma?"
"Fine with me."

Damn...head IS still spinning and I am shivering. Fuck man...guess I better sleep early tonight.

With a shivering body and a big headache, I woke up and willed myself to the bathroom this morning. Took my temperature, okie...I am having a fever, my whole body is aching, my throat is in pain and my head is spinning.

*One hour later*

Sitting here right in front of my comp in my office, I still can't believe that I actually come to work. One year back, I would have already taken a MC. Maybe I don't realise it but seem like I am starting to be more responsible in my work. Of cos, despite being so busy at work, I always find time to blog and chat with my friends during office hours...hahahaha....and I believe I am not the only one doing this.

Damn...head is still spinning. Fuck man....

Today will be my first Tuesday without having to tuition that small little monster. I am free like a bird! There are so much things I wanna do....I...I.......I wanna....OKIE....there's nothing on my mind now. Hmm...what can I do? I might as well think now and blog it down as well.

I can jio my dinner kakis out for dinner and talk cock, hmm... KH, working night shift.....B, company sports day....Bpa Lum, meeting gf......left S, free free free...but er....I think I rather stay at home.

Okie I can meet Q, er....stay Jurong....unless the car is with her today. Hmm...will call her later.

I can go jogging, then walk Milo and hopes for some Chio Bu to be around in the park. OH....or I can give W a call, get her down with her dogs too. Do some catching up with her. Been months since I met her.

I can go swimming, I love swimming! Can consider....

Or I can simply rot at home, online, talk cock, read my books and sleep. Anyway, I am knocking off soon, better think fast.

Saw my friend on msm, keep whining to me on how it's so difficult to study in Aust. Sigh......M, if you ever had the chance to see this, better study hard. Like I always say, if you give up half way, I will kick your arse back to Aust.

Q quarrel with her bf yesterday, sometimes I wonder how is it that she is able to stand his temper and attitude. Guess that love IS blind. Anyway, she was whining to me, did my best to listen while my eyes were fixed to Friends. In the end, I threw my hand in despair and gave up Friends, I decided to concentrate on listening to her, for she did lend a listening ear to me when I had my fair share of problems and of course it's just too difficult concentrating on Friends and having to listen to her at the same time.

Force her to put down the phone when I need to get ready for blading and I did log on for a while. Was surprise to know that someone out there do actually read my blog.

Something amazing happened few days back. There was this girl (let's call her L) who added me on MSN and seem to me I don't know her at all. Eventually I found out that we are link through S, one of my best pal in army. But I still find it strange because not even S has gotten my email or MSN, so how did L got it? It's still a mystery to me. Anyway, I lost S's number when I changed my HP, so L gave S's number to me. Gave him a call last night and had a wonderful time catching up on the phone. I guess it's just fated har? Hey L, thanks ger! :)

There's an Ah Beng saying..."NB!! Got study Geography before or not? Singapore is very small hor!! The world is round hor!! One day we will "du dio" ("run into each other" in Hokkien) one hor!! You better be careful!!" Fits the above, isn't it. HAHAHA!

I think I am crazy today. I am so busy since I stepped into office this morning but I actually am happy and excited that I am so busy!! I had lots of dream last night...but I couldn't remember any of them when I woke up....well...maybe one or two.

Does the below happen to you guys before?
E.g. I was doing work and my pencil dropped, I bend and pick it up and all of the sudden, I remember seeing this scene before in my dream. And this kind of thing not only happen to me once but a number of times already. Sometimes we actually do dream of what will be happening in the future. I certainly believe in this. Now do we have a term for this? Hmm....Deja Vu..yes? Maybe one day I will dream of some winning numbers then I can strike Toto or 4D. Hahaha.

Li Jia Wei lost again today. So yet again...Singapore's hope for medal is dash...just as I expected. Not that I don't support Singapore or Li Jia Wei, don't get me wrong here. Just that, sometimes, you'll just know it. But on a happier note, Liverpool won last night! YEAHHHHH! Y.N.W.A.!!

I think I have to buck up on my blading skills, although I fell only once today but that's embarrassing enough.... :p ECP change a lot since the last time I was there. Quite beautiful now. Should have taken my digicam with me. Damn....

Had a very tired day and I have to work tomorrow. Next time, my sports day will be on a bloody Saturday. Sunday will be reserve for lying in bed with Milo and my Sherlock Holmes but of course I know I am just talking cock here. In the end?? I will out playing soccer, gyming or swimming and chilling out with friends or jumping at every opportunity to get out of my house.

My little girl is sleeping like a baby now....I guess I should be sleeping too.

Oh.......To all Arsenal's fan...Gunners just pulled back to make the score 4-3......hope they can maintain that and win BECAUSE I HAVE THAT BLOODY KEEPER FOR MY YAHOO FANTASY SOCCER!! DUN MAKE ME LOSE PTS!!

Music - All Out Of Love - Air Supply

Li Jia Wei lost yesterday to the ever annoying Kim Hyang Mi from North Korea. She had been making those funny noise throughout the whole game. If I am Li Jia Wei, my bat will be flying across instead of the ping pong ball. Too bad that she lost her million dollar dream just like that.

Went to Tampines Stadium to support my favourite S-League team, Tampines Rover, yesterday after watching Li Jia Wei losing her million bucks live on 5. A lady or I should said an auntie came up to me and offered two tickets free! At that very moment, the true blue Singaporean in me surfaced, with very swiftly movement, the tickets were already in my hand. With big thank you, minus the kiss of course, we were already in the stadium. And what a evening!! Not only we get to watch the match free, Tampines went on to win the match 3-0!! We advance to the final of Singapore Cup. Finally, we had the chance of getting a double this year!! Wednesday will be another big match for us. We will be up against Home United and if we win, the title will be almost 90% ours. Tampines JIA YOU!

After the match, I met up with the rest of the BPAs, and we went over to Supercue for pool. Slept only at 3:30am....and I am suppose to blading the next day....hope I can make it there.

Music - Unchained Melody - Gareth Gates

I was with a group of friends (all guys) at Mac, makan, talk cock sing song. Just right opposite our table seated a group of girls. One of them had her zip on her pants unzip and her glory was left open for all to see.

Being such nice guys, we wrote a note wanting to pass to her so as to save her from the embarrassment. After some fingers guessing games, I was the lucky chap to pass the note. The girls saw what we were doing and were giggling away when I approach my "target" with the supposed "love note". Then with a smug look on her face, she took the note from me. Without even reading the note, she turned to her friends and said, "I won't give my number ler."

Oh She....She thinks that she is pretty
Maybe only the hair can make it
I don't give a shit

Oh She....She thinks that she is pretty
Only the backview can make it
I don't give a shit

This loosely translated chinese song came to my mind.......

So what did I do? I just told her straight in her face, "MISS, I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU THAT YOUR ZIP IS OPEN LAH!" and I make sure my voice ain't that soft. The whole group of them left straight after the girl came back from the toilet.

Miss Unzipped Flyer, if you ever had the chance to read this, I want to tell you I am sorry to embarrass you like that. Moral of the story, don't be too over confident. I have to admit you ain't bad looking but PLEASE READ THE NOTE FIRST NEXT TIME.

I rushed home for OC and Olympics was all I saw that was on TV. I didn't know The OC wasn't going to be on tonight until she called. Damn you!! Bloody Olympics!

My comp in office went down....and server went down too. Till now the problem still not solve yet, thus tomorrow I have to go in super early. Fuck man....Damn you!! Bloody PC!!

The cheque that my friend deposited in my name was post dated...so I can't get my money any sooner....I knew he will pull this kind of stun le. Damn you!! Bloody post dated cheque!! And damn you for trying to pull a stun like that!

I can bet with anyone...my string of bad luck will continue ler......Damn you!! My lousy life!!

Just met this very attractive lady. She told me she is a mother of FIVE CHILDREN and she is only 28 this year...wah piangz...her hubby damn power.

Needless to say....I was shock. What's her secret, man? She look slim....no..I should said her figure is GREAT and she look young. She has her own business in Singapore, Malaysia, Indonesia. Oh man....she is attractive and she is rich! Too bad...married....but I can always be her toy boy.

Any tai tai interested in toy boy? There's one here....

Just finish talking to my ex. She msg me Good Night this time, so I thought to myself, why not call her? Anyway it's been a long time since we really talk on the phone after out breakup.

Talked about nothing in particular, just updating each other about our own recent events. Maybe I should just get her to read my blog. Ahaha......

Music - Hold On - Jet

My ex msg me this morning, early morning in fact. Talked for a while using SMSes. Thoughts of her wanting to come back start coming in thru'...........what happen that night also came flashing thru' my mind, the night we became an item. What's posted below was something I saved as Draft few days back. Don't intend to publish it though but I guess it should be okie....not some secret anyway.

"Do you like me?" was the question she asked me that night. I kept quiet....I dared not make a sound. I was hoping she might think I am sleeping already. I struggled in my heart, I wanted to tell her how much I like her. I wanted to tell her I am falling in love with her.

It was only after a while, words finally came out from my mouth..."Ya...I like you...I think I am in love with you." There was no answer....no response....damn....

"Er.....are you sleeping already?" I waited....still no response...ah...fuck it lah....

"No...."

I almost fell off my bed. She wasn't asleep after all. I turned and look at her on the bed beside me....her back was facing me. "Er....can I ask you something too?"

"Okie", I know that was the chance I must grab. I took a deep breath and mustered all my courage...."Do you like me?"

".................................." That moment of silence seem like forever to me. My heart was pounding hard....

"Yes...." Her back was still facing me.... Oh God....I felt like I am in heaven but now I don't what to say to her.....what should I do now?

"Can I sleep beside you? I mean I just want to lie down beside you, I am not going to do anything funny." I don't want to sound like a pervert to her and I was surprise at my own words.

"Er....okie" She shifted in to the side of the bed making a space for me. I steadied myself and moved over to her bed. I couldn't believe that this was happening at all. There I was, sleeping right beside her. I wanted to hug her but I dare not. I did not even dare to shift my body...I was lying there motionless like a corpse.

Suddenly she turned and faced me, her fingers interlocked my fingers, she was looking at me....and..I....I...was looking at the celling. She shifted in closer to me and rested her head on my chest. My heart was pounding hard.....very hard...I felt my face turn red and hot....my ears were burning. I looked at her and our eyes met. Her eyes are so beautiful, "Why is your heart pounding so hard and loud?"

"I....er.....is it? No lah, it's my normal heartbeat." My face must be redder than the butt of a monkey. Luckily the light wasn't on. I felt her hand touching my face, "Why is your face so warm? Are you hot?"

Oh man...how could you not know....I am nervous but I have to keep my cool, "Oh...ya...it's kinda hot today..heh heh heh. Okie okie....it's quite late le....I think we should be sleeping......."

Her lips touched mine.......We kissed......

29 Dec 2000, such a fairy tale day for me. Too bad, not all fairy tales end with a happy ending.

Finally, gugu finally re-appeared this morning after missing for two days. Been waiting at the "duan chang" cliff for bloody two days....hee. Gugu, if you ever have the time to come in and read this, Guo Er know you are tired but I will support you le. Gugu..jia you!

Had the worst tuition last night. The kid was horrible. I am damn pissed off. Nothing was good after that.

A friend was suppose to return me 300 bucks last night but he called said he gotten an advance pay from his boss and put down my name as the bearer on the cheque. He dropped the cheque into the bank last night and said I should get my money the next few days. Okie...not that I don't trust him but this kind of stun he pulled quite a number of times before. I wonder when can he clear all the 3K that he owed me.

When I got home, I was still unhappy and pissed, so I took my girl down for a walk. Took my zoom groom with me too, intend to give her a brush to get rid of her dead fur. I was shock at the amount of fur that I comb out and there red red lumps on her back. For the first time in my life, I feel so kan cheong over a pet. Now I know Milo is not just a pet to me, she mean a lot to me. I am going to stick back to barf and see how it goes. Shouldn't have change the bloody food.

I think I am going to quit tuition soon.

Learned a new lesson today from my boss. The whole meaning of doing business is to make the greatest profit margin possible.

How to get the lowest cost? How to get customers to buy at the greatest profit margin possible? Profit...that's what business is all about! I am now being trained by my boss to think in this way.

Two ways I am seeing this, by doing so, 1) I will be able to make more money for him, 2) This will also benefit me in the future.

So I am going to make that my second nature. From now on, I have to fine tune my thinking.

It's mid August now, just a month plus before my birthday. Somehow, this year I am not looking forward to it. Going 24 this year, oh man.....mid 20s....still no career, no money, no house, no cars, no gals, no sex, no life, no everything......This is shit man!!

For 3-1/2 yrs, I am so use of getting present from one source.....my gf. So this year I won't be getting any, I guess.

Me and my friends dun practice giving presents on birthday....it just doesn't appeal to us. We like the idea of getting together and have fun, which is of cos, meal will be at the expense of the birthday kid. This is our way of celebrating birthdays.

Anyway, it's still a month plus away.....I think I better concentrate on clearing my IPPT first. Damn you, filthy SAF!!

Bought two DVDs today, Fahrenheit 9/11 & The Passion of The Christ and coincidentally, she bought the same two shows today too. If I had know earlier.....I could just borrow it from her. Telepathy.....


Music - Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton (To me, he's the God of Guitar)

Arsenal match was great last night. They thrashed Everton 4-1, Yeahhhhh! I hate Everton! All Liverpool fans hate Everton.

I was catching the match at some Indian restaurant at Downtown East last night and Joey was somewhere nearby. Told me that she and Gary should be joining me for the Chelsea Vs Man U match. Too bad....the owner off the TV just before the big match was about to start, he wanted us to buy more drinks before he will on the TV again. He said that the response was not that good. All the ppl there were pissed off, we left.

HEY TAMBI, DON"T MAKE ME KILL YOU BY PRESSING THAT BLOODY BUTTON ON YOUR HEAD. By doing what you did last night, who will go back to your restaurant again? Now I know why your business wasn't that good, you don't even know how to operate your bloody restaurant!

Offer the customers who ar watching EPL some free SALTY tibits, make your finger food a little more salty. We will order more drinks once we are thirsty. And by offering some free tibits, you will be winning some of us over already. All these are basic things you should be doing!

On EPL night, offer 1 for 1. Organize games like Guess the correct score and win free beer or whatever. Tambi, if you ever have the chance to read this, do consider my suggestion. It will help.

In the end after we left, I went back straight home, didn't even catch the big match. Ringed up Qi, love talking to her. We are always debating over topics and I love that. :)

After watching I-Robot one or two weeks ago, I had been thinking......isn't this robot thingy close to what it is now in Singapore? Look at the number of maids and bangladeshi workers working in Singapore....Given one fateful day, they decided to do what the Robots did in the movie, do we ample time to react? I don't think so. Our force will be able to suppress them after some time but how many will already been dead by then? Maybe Jack Neo should come up with a movie called I-Maid.........

Supposed to go blading yesterday, but alas it rained. Called up a friend and went out for a drink and we nearly got strike by lighting 2 times!!! First, it strike the lamp post just right in front of us, we were sitting outside Mac having ice tea. When that happened, my friend and I just look at each other, smile, stand up and further in. Well, seem like He is still not happy, lighting strike the bloody metal thingy just while we were shifting in. Again, we look at each other, smile and move in ASAP. My friend kept telling me that it was meant for me because I did too much sinful things, I am an evil-doer. We were also joking to each how both of us can have our holiday (Chinese Ghost Festival) straight away if we really kena by lighting. Happy Chinese Ghost Festival to all!

I feel like I'll be falling sick soon. I did not have enough sleep these few days.

Still remember 1 month ago I was sick, one of my ex really took great care of me. I had fever, she was like taking my temperature every now and then, keeping changing the small towel on my forehead when I can see that she was already very tired and sleepy. By the time I woke up the next morning...she was already fast asleep beside me. Sometime I don't think I deserve such kindness. It's like we are not even together anymore. If you ever have the chance to read this.....thank you.

Visit to granny was great, did not get to meet any big bad wolf though :p Went Beach Bar for some EPL action after visiting granny. And ya......Liverpool draw.....much to my disappointment. But it's only the first game...Y.N.W.A.!!

Anyway, I finished the last sentence ler with the help of someone :) Thank you for translating that sentence for me.

I decided to delete my last post. It just some crap that came to my mind. Have save it as a draft though. I just love to pen down what has suddenly come to my mind. Last night, before going out with the BPAs, all those words just start to flash thru' my mind.

Just got back from work and lunch, will be visiting my granny in a while. It's been a long time.....I really miss her. I am really afraid....God will take her back. Please don't....please.

I miss her coffee. Since the tender age of one, she is already introducing coffee to me. Drinking coffee has been a part of my life since then. Well, The French has their coffee maker, We have our "sock". True coffee lovers in Singapore will know what I mean.

Hey hey, my connection is back! Once again, I am able to connect to the world. Yeahhhhhhhhhhhh!

I have to work tomorrow....and I tot I don't have to. Okie....there's goes my plan for golf in the morning. Sunday I will going blading, I am still a newbie to this blade thingy, hope I won't fall.

Okie I am bored! I am so bored....I wanna go out. I don't want to be at home. It's fucking Friday night man.

Oh....God must have hear my cries.....HP is ringing le.....

Okie.....prayer answered... Bon Jovi is right - Keep the faith...... :p


Music - Are you gonna be my girl - Jet

Wasted myself thru' the night w/o connectivity to the world wide web yesterday. It's day 2 since I lost my net connection back at home.

Anyway last night was okie, had to tuition the little monster till 9pm. I reached home at 10pm and was catching up with Janis on the phone until The OC started.

I am OC addicted....and Charmed addicted....not to mention Smallville as well, such a TV junkie I am.

By the time OC ended, I was already getting ready for my sleep. But anyway, I end up having supper with a friend till 2am...

Okie....it's Friday and I haven't plan for anything tonight. Shit....look like I am going to waste myself at home tonight. What a Friday the 13th for me.....

My net connection was down last night...I couldn't log in. I restart my com 5 bloody times and it's still the same. So what did I do? I on the TV and all the shows were like so boring until SG Idol. SG Idol is great or I mean at least I still have something to keep me occupied till 9:30pm. What to do after that? Damn....

At 9:15pm, HP rang.
Friend: "Wei! Rubber...where are you?"
Rubber Lun: "Home..."
Friend: "Doing what fuck?"
Rubber Lun: "Fucking with teacher lor..."
Friend: "Ya right...she's with me lah. Ahaha"
Rubber Lun: "Ya right...hahaha...I watching SG Idol lah. What you want?"
Friend: "Dinner leh. Meet in 5 mikes at CC."
Rubber Lun: "5 mikes?! Where are you now?"
Friend: "At office leh. Taking cab back."
Rubber Lun: "Fuck lah! You're still in office and you want me to meet you in 5 mikes. You sure can reach in 5 mikes meh?"
Friend: "NB! 5 mikes is for you. Cos I know you will rubber and only reach in 15 mikes."
Rubber Lun: "Ahahaha...okie okie...15 mikes...see you at CC."
Friend: "No no no...5 mikes."
Rubber Lun: "Ahaha...okie okie 5 mikes."
Friend: "Dun rubber har..."
Rubber Lun: "Har lah!!"

Well....Needless to say......I rubbered again... :þ

When I reach home that night, I look at my Comp again....With my connection down, I am lost...and so I realize I do not have a life.

In contrast to the previous two seasons when Home United and SAFFC picked up the S.League title within a relative comfort zone, the 2004 edition looks to be on its way to a photo-finish when it draws to a conclusion in late September.

With six matches to go, the title chase is now a three-horse race between reigning champions Home United, the resurgent Young Lions and Tampines Rovers.

The Stags lead Home by 4 points with Home still having a game in hand, but Stags' fans are already rubbing their hands in anticipation of a first-ever league title.

However, coach Vorawan Chitavanich isn’t counting his chickens yet. "There is still a long way to go with six matches left to play, but what’s important is that we don’t have pick up any injuries or suspensions in the remaining games."

His team being tagged as ‘Dad’s Army’ at the start of the season and Tampines chairman Teo Hock Seng is raring for the gold to prove his doubters wrong.

"At the start of the season when we assembled a decent team packed with experienced players, few gave my team a chance for the title.

"While it’s true that we may not be the fittest team around, we have more than enough quality in the squad to make up for it," said Teo, known popularly as ‘the Godfather’.

Right behind the Stags in second place are Home United, who are still the bookmakers’ favourites to win the league.

Despite having one of the smallest squads in the league and initially struggling with injuries and suspensions, Home honcho Steve Darby’s side is still in with a shout in the three fronts of the S.League, Singapore Cup and AFC Cup.

Englishman Darby says the title race will go right down to the wire.

"I think the league this year is capable of throwing up many surprises, Balestier deservedly beat us and have just beaten Woodlands, while Sinchi, due to their many changes, are impossible to predict.

"The top seven teams are all capable of beating one other. There is a long way to go yet, 18 points to play for and many exciting games to watch."

Home United could have the toughest run-in of fixtures, leading to their final game away at Geylang United due to their cup commitments, something which fellow title challengers Young Lions do not have.

The Young Lions have been a revelation this season, largely due to the additions of foreigners as well as the best young local talents of the league from last season.

With the exception of two drubbings at the hands of Tampines, the Young Lions have proved to be more than a match for their more experienced opponents: their hat-trick of wins over Home bearing testimony to that achievement.

Rank outsiders for the title and seven points behind the Stags, with a game in hand, the Young Lions' management team is content to let the spotlight fall on their rivals.

Speaking at the end of their stunning 4-1 win over Home United, assistant coach Fandi Ahmad said: "The Young Lions will be happy to play the role of spoiler in this season’s title race."

Indeed, this season still has plenty of twists left in it and even SAFFC and Woodlands Wellington are still mathematically in with a shout for the title as both clubs still have to play the top three in the remaining games.

As ‘the Godfather’ Teo aptly summed up: "With six games to go, this is the final hurdle and it will be interesting to see which of us will stumble at the very end."

Extracted - sleague.com

Look like my 170 bucks are almost in le...HAHA

Sign from stress of work is starting to show again. I am starting to feel the tightness and pain around my neck. I predict my migraine will start soon and I fucking hate migraine.

Once, I had this terrible migraine going on for 3 weeks. I went hospital for checkup, took several test (since it's free) and even did a scan on my head.

Test result? Just stress.....that's all. Doc prescripted some mild steroid to me, told me no harm just one side effect though, hyperactive at night. In the end, I didn't get much sleep at night for that whole week.

My friend is meeting me for dinner at 10:10pm...and I am still here. No wonder, my friend called me rubber lun....my time is always stretchable...when I am early for a date or appt...meaning either that person is very impt to me or that appt is very impt to me....

Opps....my friend called....kena scolded....ciao...continue when I am back.

I was suppose to go for blading yesterday but in the end I didn't. Not that I don't want to, just that someone is too lazy? Or she was concern that I will be too tired because I went for a jog earlier on? Hmm...

In the end, I went Kinokuniya @ Taka, finally found the full collections of Sherlock Holmes novels and short stories with the help of my friend.

On my way to town, I realize that not many ppl hang Singapore Flag outside their house. It make me wonder are we really that patriotic?

Survey was conducted recently as to why Singaporeans don't hang Singapore Flag outside their house during national day. Here are few reasons that we gave:
1) Flags are too expensive lah.....
2) It's not a must right?
3) Troublesome lah.....
4) Our house don't have flag lah....
and for those who really do it? Either the flag was upside down, inverted or the it was hang together with their undies and bra....I feel insulted. Why is it that Singaporeans will kill for the tickets to NDP but when it come to simple thing like hanging a flag they would come out with all sort of excuses? It really make me wonder......and for your information, I don't hang the flag outside my house either. I don't care and couldn't be bother about it.

After buying my book, my friend and I went for sushi for our dinner. It's been like few months since I had Jap food and yesterday dinner was great, even met a poly classmate whom I didn't contact for like 2yrs? After that, we wanted to rush home for SG Idol, but my friend came up to me and said: "Hey, you know what? I didn't bring my house key out leh...and my mum will only be back home after 12am..."

So in the end, we end up in Indochine, had beer and talk cock. Went back at 11:30pm and had supper with another friend. In the end, I was back home only at 2am....what a Happy National Day for me.

Alright...trying to catch my sleep. Didn't get enough last 2 nights. Friday night I was at Fisherman village drinking with my fellowship. Yesterday I was at Black drinking again. Didn't dance tho..feeling a bit old le. But I couldn't sleep at all because it is too noisy downstair. There's a Malay wedding going on. Look like I can only get some rest when they stop the whole thing.

EPL is finally going to start. Tonight, it's the charity shield matchup, Arsenal Vs Man U. I hope gunners will win because I don't want Alex Ferguson to win at all. This year, Liverpool will be different. They will challage the likes of Gunners, Devils and Blues. Rafa will bring back the glory to Liverpool.

We, the Liverpool's fan always believe that they are only two great teams in Merseyside, Liverpool and Liverpool Reserves. You'll Never Walk Alone!!!!

I think my 170 bucks is slowly making its way to my pocket already. Tampines won Tanjong Pagar 1-0, now that Tampines top the table, we just have to maintain the form to win the title. If Tampines win, I win.

We change the venue to Fisherman Village instead of Embargo tonight. Wondering will there be any veggies tonight? (To those who do read my blog, I am not going to explain what a veggie mean) Seem harder to find time for a drink these days, wonder what's wrong. Is it because I am too lazy to go out sometimes or all my friends are busy with their gf or bf?

My friend intro me a job on board a ship, each assignment is half a year with a 2 months break at the end of each assignment. I am seriously consisdering, since now I am single again, there's nothing to hold me back here. To me, making money is more important now.

Young Lions trash Homes 4-1 yesterday. If Tampines win tonight, we will be topping the bloody table. Tonight I am suppose to be at the stadium shouting MIRKO MIRKO MIRKO !! But I forgot that I am suppose to go for a bloody tuition tonight. And that stupid ger make me buy a sticker for her.

Now I can only wait for the good news after my tuition. Oh Tampines, please top the bloody table and win the Championship. I already bet 10 bucks on you winning the title. Please make me win this 170 bucks.

At least there is O.C. today, Thursday night ain't that bad after all. Hmm reminded me of a song.......

"Tuesday just might go my way. It can't get worse than yesterday. Thursdays, Fridays ain't been kind, But somehow I'll survive.........Hey, man I'm alive I'm takin' each day and night at a time. Yeah I'm down, but I know I'll get by Hey hey hey hey, man gotta live my life, I'm gonna pick up all the pieces and what's left of my pride, I'm feelin' like a Monday, but someday I'll be Saturday night. I'm feelin' like a Monday, but someday I'll be Saturday night............."

Anyway, it's long weekend this week so we should be happy shouldn't we? Someone is already having her Friday today, and I still have to work on Saturday.

Argh!! I am so stupid today......tamade....I hope I will never make another mistake like this again.

Was late this morning (Boss was even later, he's not here yet), woke up at 8am while my colleague is already waiting for me down my block since 7:50am.

Weather seem fine now after the initial coldness in the early morning, energy level boosted.

Weather is so unpredictable.....it can be so hot now but next moment it can be so cold that you get frost bite. So why is it so hard to find a needle in the sea? The fact that the needle is too small? Or the fact that the sea is too big?

Friday is the eve of weekends, Friday is Embargo hour with friends and Friday is also the day I hope to complete the software that I am developing for my company. So am I still looking forward to Friday? Yes? No? I don't really know. The software still got bugs which I can't seem to solve, don't think so that by Friday I am able to do anything about it. Like now my mind is still blank.

Look like weather is affecting me a lot, when it's hot, I feel energetic but when it's cold, I feel sick, engery level is just not there. Just like now......I think I better go to sleep.

Saw a show on TV on Sunday. It's about how some of the Ah Gongs & AH Mahs in SG live their life to fullest. The msg I gotten from it? Don't live your life with regrets. Life is too short for that.

Life should be like fireworks. Although it's short but it is always so beautiful. Just like how we should live our life, although short, but we should always give our best and live it to the fullest. Make it beautiful......

One more msg that I gotten from the show? Money is not impt but you cannot live w/o it. You wanna live your life to the fullest? You can't do it w/o the cold hard cash. Let's face it, I do not want to be picking empty drink cans and cardboards when I am old. This is not the life I want. This is not living life to the fullest. I do not want to worry about how am I going to survive with only that few dollars which was made by collecting cans and cardboards.

My heart is burning with fire.....with desires.....i haven't had this feeling for a long time. I am beginning to feel alive again. Something or someone lit the fire in my heart again. I donno who or what....but I am gonna make use of this chance. I had to make this small business plan hiding in one corner of my head into a success.

Now what if I fail? So what, at least I tried!

Did something which made gu gu angry today. Paranoid as I am....I think she is kinda piss off. Hmm....sometimes I asked too much. Kpo as I am but it's my way of showing concern. Well I guess she ain't angry anymore cos she msg me for dinner suggestion. Something she always do when her lunch or dinner's idea chamber is empty and need suggestions to fill them up.

She mentioned I am too sensitive and paranoid today....well...maybe I really am. This is something which I think I have to change. Too much of something ain't good. Glad that someone pointed out my weaknesses and cons, this way I will be able to change and be a better man.

Such a bad friend I am, it's my friend birthday and when I was being jio for supper, I can tell my friend that I am too tired to go. Well, kena scolded and shouted in the phone: "Ming tian shi wo de sheng ri leh!" So I got dress and went down over to the hawker center near my friend's place. Had fun and the food was nice.

I am so full and tired now but if that make my friend's day....then I guess I am happy too :) Going to sleep ler, good night!!

Music: Hei Fun Ni - Beyond (My fav, man!!)

It was JRM 2nd Anniversary Bash yesterday. We were like arriving quite late, and in the end we just collected the prizes that we won and it was already time to leave :þ Then directions were given to us as to where the main road is, in the end we took almost 1 hour to finish a supposing 15min distance. Met the rest of the gang while waiting for cab and we decided to join them in Pet Stuffs. I am going to rent a car in the next outing. I am not going to stand on the road and get rejected by cabs just because we have dogs with us. Hey, next time we will have a car, okie?

I lost my circus virginity to her and Moscow Circus today. And we almost couldn't make it to the show today. When Sistics send the tickets to her, she went and threw away the tickets into the dump :s And she has to go all the way to Kallang to get the replacement tickets, it was like so far away for her. And to prevent it from being thrown away or getting loss, she past the tickets to me. Wise choice! :þ

The circus was fantastic!! I feel like a kid there. Too bad I didn't bring my camera with me. Damn.....that was my the biggest mistake today :( Everything was so er....I don't how to explain. Maybe because it is my first circus that why I feel it is special. Oh damn I feel so like a kid. And I hate kids esp at this kind of event. I hate parents who can't control their kids and let them run around the place. It is so rude.

I think I am not going to have any children next time. It's so different from having a dog. Milo dun cry in the public, she dun run around and cause a nuisance, she dun jump up and down on the bloody chair and block your view from the show.

Feeling hungry now. Think I will just order pizza and beast it. Damn...all the pizza and KFC talk with her is making me hungry.

07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004
08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004
09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004
10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004
11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004
12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005
01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005
02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005

Name: Ryan
Bloodline: Toh
Age: 24+
Birth: 28 Sept 1980
Where: Singapore
Hometown: In the East, where the Pines are
Job: Buyer

Loves: Family, Baby, Liverpool, Soccer, Reading, Comics, Swimming, Music, Bon Jovi, Beyond, The O.C., Smallville, Charmed

Never Loves: Liars, Back Stabbers