My ex msg me this morning, early morning in fact. Talked for a while using SMSes. Thoughts of her wanting to come back start coming in thru'...........what happen that night also came flashing thru' my mind, the night we became an item. What's posted below was something I saved as Draft few days back. Don't intend to publish it though but I guess it should be okie....not some secret anyway.
"Do you like me?" was the question she asked me that night. I kept quiet....I dared not make a sound. I was hoping she might think I am sleeping already. I struggled in my heart, I wanted to tell her how much I like her. I wanted to tell her I am falling in love with her.
It was only after a while, words finally came out from my mouth..."Ya...I like you...I think I am in love with you." There was no answer....no response....damn....
"Er.....are you sleeping already?" I waited....still no response...ah...fuck it lah....
"No...."
I almost fell off my bed. She wasn't asleep after all. I turned and look at her on the bed beside me....her back was facing me. "Er....can I ask you something too?"
"Okie", I know that was the chance I must grab. I took a deep breath and mustered all my courage...."Do you like me?"
".................................." That moment of silence seem like forever to me. My heart was pounding hard....
"Yes...." Her back was still facing me.... Oh God....I felt like I am in heaven but now I don't what to say to her.....what should I do now?
"Can I sleep beside you? I mean I just want to lie down beside you, I am not going to do anything funny." I don't want to sound like a pervert to her and I was surprise at my own words.
"Er....okie" She shifted in to the side of the bed making a space for me. I steadied myself and moved over to her bed. I couldn't believe that this was happening at all. There I was, sleeping right beside her. I wanted to hug her but I dare not. I did not even dare to shift my body...I was lying there motionless like a corpse.
Suddenly she turned and faced me, her fingers interlocked my fingers, she was looking at me....and..I....I...was looking at the celling. She shifted in closer to me and rested her head on my chest. My heart was pounding hard.....very hard...I felt my face turn red and hot....my ears were burning. I looked at her and our eyes met. Her eyes are so beautiful, "Why is your heart pounding so hard and loud?"
"I....er.....is it? No lah, it's my normal heartbeat." My face must be redder than the butt of a monkey. Luckily the light wasn't on. I felt her hand touching my face, "Why is your face so warm? Are you hot?"
Oh man...how could you not know....I am nervous but I have to keep my cool, "Oh...ya...it's kinda hot today..heh heh heh. Okie okie....it's quite late le....I think we should be sleeping......."
Her lips touched mine.......We kissed......
29 Dec 2000, such a fairy tale day for me. Too bad, not all fairy tales end with a happy ending.
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