Once again, I let my feeling take over me. I thought I could forget her, so damn I was wrong. These few days, after getting back my stuff, I did not even had the slightest thought of her. I seriously thought I am moving on, I seriously thought I am strong enough. Yah...man....SO damn I was wrong.
Last night, while chatting on MSN with Kat and Debs and writing my blog, it just all came back. I miss her...a lot....a lot....a lot...a lot. The feeling is so overwhelming that I guess it affected me.
Kat detected it...asked me why am I so quiet suddenly, asked me whether I was moody. I actually wanted to just sign off because I was in no mood to chat or play games. Kat advised me to sleep but I know I wouldn't be able to do so. Kat was kind enough to keep me company by msg-ing me even when she need to sign off. Actually was I the one who is accompanying her?....kekeke....thanks Kat. (Although you may not get to see this)
I msg gu gu, told her what happened. She was kind enough to listen to me although she was tired and it's 11 to 12+ in the night. She just got back from dog viewing with Joey. I really thanks her and appreciated her for doing this.
A while later I saw Joey signed in.......wanted to just act normal and tok cok with her but I couldn't do it. In the end, I made her listen to my lengthy story......I just couldn't take it, I just want to get it off my chest! Tamade......is it so difficult to forget someone? Is it so difficult to move on? I thought I am strong, guess that I was wrong.
On the road to recovery, you will find yourself back to square one, to where you have started, when you thought you are already moving on. Now I truly understand this.